I'm just a girl

I admitted to Jenny last night when I was drunk that I miss you.
And I'll say it again when I'm sober.

...but the truth is, I miss the old you.
the old you, even if you don't think you've changed.

Sometimes I wish I could call you and we could go for coffee.
But I'm sure you'd think that would be awkward.
I wish that you would call me.
But I know that will never happen.
What happend to our promises?

I hope you're happy.
then at least on of us is.

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	Jun. 24th, 2005 @ 01:58 pm

Hey Bitches! Add my new journal!
and see a picture of Graham!!!

Journal: larmes_de_moi

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NEW JOURNAL	Jun. 13th, 2005 @ 02:20 pm

For those of you who actually care...

I made a new journal that I'll be writing in from now on.

larmes_de_moi

I started writing in livejournal 3 years ago. Back 3 years ago, I was a different person. I'm different now and I realize that and I'm moving on. I'm leaving meehyecho behind, and starting my journal with the new me.

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	Jun. 13th, 2005 @ 11:14 am

I knew I was on the down side of life lately, but seriously...

I am in more of an emotional state than I thought I was last night when I wrote my last post.

I feel like I just need to cry for hours on end.

The solution to my problem....is moving out of the house. The one thing I can't afford to do.

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I feel like I have so much to say	Jun. 13th, 2005 @ 01:45 am

I've been feeling pretty down lately and I feel like I have so much building up inside of me that it will just erupt one day. But when I think about it, there's really not. It's mainly one thing. Or I just can't pinpoint everything right now.

Here are three things I need to say:

un: I can't believe you. What were you thinking?
deux: I feel like I scared you away even though I know that's not it.
trois: I wish this virus on my computer would go away.

There's too much tension around my house. I can feel it all around me. I feel like the walls are caving in and there's no escape. The one thing that has helped me get away has been Harry Potter. When I read, I forget everything else that is happening around me. It's a great feeling. Sex and the City has been great to watch also. Except, it makes me wish I could fall in love the way Kerry Bradshaw falls in love.

I wish some people would just pick up the phone and dial my number. How hard is a phone call anyway? Even just a simple hello.

And then today. I saw you for one of the first times without her around. I can't describe the feelings. Then to see the family. I can almost say that I felt awkward. It almost brings tears to my eyes talking and thinking about it.

There's some feelings I wish I could just stop. Like when it comes to certain boys.

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

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I definitely started this day out horribly.

Someone help it be better!!
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